I'm very sorry about how things have been lately, and I know syaing sorry is not enough.
But you have to understand, I don't know how to feel, think, or act.
I'm hurt, scared...alone.
These types of things are not easy for me, and believe me I did not want things to be this way.
I threw away my chance, all out of fear, and I regret that. But I know I do not desevere a second chance, nor will I ask for one.
I don't even know what I am trying to say, I wish I did.
I wish I knew what I was feeling.