Muse: Niikura Kaoru
Band: Dir en grey
Nothing seemed real. Not a damned thing. Outside, the sun was bright and spilling in through his partially closed blinds. He felt as though he had just woken up from some long slumber. Kaoru took a slow look around his apartment, finding it a mess – something it normally shouldn’t have been. Not only was it a mess but also it felt so… terribly empty.
Sitting up, Kaoru touched his fingers to his temples to massage over the strained muscles before spying the pictures of his band mates on his dresser.
He felt dumb. Stupid, so incredibly stupid. What could have possessed him in such a manner that would cause him to hurt those dearest to him? His rough fingers pressed harder at his temples before he resorted to tugging on his bangs before dropping his hands to the bed. Self-mutilation was Kyo’s department, not his.
Standing up, he stood in front of the dresser and looked over the pictures. There was Die, Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya - his best friends. He smiled, emotion tugging at his heart.
There was no reason for him to be angry with anyone just as there was reason he shouldn’t be alone. There were so many people who deserved an apology from him and deserved so much more. Heaving out a sigh, he looked to himself in the mirror and stared into his dark eyes. There was hurt in those eyes but strength that he, as well as everyone else, knew he possessed.
The first person to apologize to…
“I’m sorry,” he said softly as he continued to stare at himself in the mirror.